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Bees and Bees and Bees
01:32
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Inbetween the time that I lay down and I fall asleep
I can hear the things that you have said to me
Buzzing 'round my head, it's just like bees and bees and bees
You're the queen and I'm working day and night to say unseen
Out of reach and out of sight
A swarm of mean, circling round my bed
It's just like bees and bees and bees
And I'll never follow you to your hive
'Cause I'm not sure that I would survive
And all the trees that I am barking up are all wrong
And I'm pretty sure I'm gonna get stung
And I'll never follow you to your hive
'Cause I'm not sure that I would survive
And all the trees that I am barking up are all wrong
And I'm pretty sure I'm gonna get stung
Inbetween the time that I lay down and I fall asleep
I can hear the things that you have said to me
Buzzing 'round my head, it's just like bees and bees and bees
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Count to Three
03:41
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Well, I’ve got a way of unraveling
When there’s too much or nothing to do
And there is a whole lot of crazy that you’re subjected to
List all of the things that’ll go wrong
Catastrophes all in my head
Excuses are made but before long
You make me get up and out of bed
And by the end of the day i’m fine
I'm frozen in place when you find me
Defeated before I've begun
But no matter the problem or question, you say
That's an easy one
Well, I've got a brain built for worry
But you've got a way to get through
I ask how you know I'll be okay, and you say
Well, that's easy, too
If you count to three, I'll be there with you
You can count on me to take care of you
Just remember these words I said to you:
If you think it's gonna be great, it's gonna be great, it's gonna be great
And if you think it's gonna be great, it's gonna be great, it's gonna be great
If you think it's gonna be great, it's gonna be great, it's gonna be great
And if you think it's gonna be great, it's gonna be great, it's gonna be great
And by the end of the day, I'm fine
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Chicago
03:54
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The song I wrote
Before Chicago was buried in snow
Was so much happier, and now I don't know
Why I thought I could sing it to you
And the winter's cold
I was outside and I was shoveling snow
My hands were frozen, and I walked all alone
Down the icy sidewalk home
The city feels new again, but not in a good way
I still get lost now and then. I haven't been here too long and
You gave me something to look forward to
Something to look forward to, but now it's just me again
And another day
Another week is over and I'd say
It has been wasted in my living room
In my kitchen and my bed
There's a world out there
I've always known it but I couldn't bear
To be a part of it, I'll just stay here
With the blankets over my head
The city feels new again, but not in a good way
I feel far from all my friends, I feel like I'm disappearing
And it gets old
Trudging, tripping over tree roots
My toes are cold
Still haven't gotten snowboots
From what I'm told
It ain't gettin' any better anytime soon
The city feels new again, but not in a good way
And now I just don't know when Chicago will feel like home again
'Cause I learned to see this town through you
Now I guess I'll have to start brand new
You gave me something to look forward to
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Robot Heart
02:00
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You have given me everything I could want
You have given me everything I could need
You gave me love and all the stars from above
You gave me the moon and the sun
But I just couldn't love you
I'm not known for complaining about always being alone
but it is so frustrating to have no one to call my own
And you gave me love and all the stars from above
You gave me the moon and the sun
But I just couldn't love you
And I wish I could see all those things you apparently saw in me
And I wish I could be the one for you, but you're not the one for me
Maybe I'm just a robot walking 'round in human skin
Or maybe I'm just broken and could not let you in
'Cause you gave me love and all the stars from above
You gave me the moon and the sun
God, tell me why couldn't I just love you
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5. |
I Didn't Try
03:04
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By now, I could've had my shit together, if I'd only tried
I could've had a house and a car and a cat and a baby
And a boy who would love me, maybe, but I didn't try
No, I didn't try hard enough for it
By now, I could've had my shit together, if I'd only tried
I could've had a job and a dog and a place in the city
And a boy who would call me pretty, but I didn't try
No, I didn't try hard enough for it
I never thought that I would be this old with no clue where to go
I never thought that it'd be me who was still floundering
So scared of life, scared of everything, so good at hiding from the world
Dragging my feet, scraping my knees
By now, I could've had my shit together, if I'd only tried
I could've had the life that I wanted, the way that it should be
But instead, I am stuck with maybes, 'cause I didn't try
No, I didn't try
I'm too scared to try
No, I didn't try hard enough for it
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6. |
Little Tiny
04:35
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The sunrise in the morning comes before I’ve even gotten into bed
And the light pours through my window but the rain is coming down inside my head
And I’ve gotten pretty tired of all these beatings that I take
And it never seems to let up when I’m dreaming or when I’m awake
And I’ve never been small, but I feel little tiny all the time
I don't know who I could call in this town in the middle of the night
If my car broke down or I was locked out of my house
If I needed to hear someone say hello
And I’ve done it to myself, I’ve made sure I will always be alone
And I think that I can see you from my window, and I think I hear you call
But I go and get my toolbox and my trowel and I build another wall
Then I go back to my bed and I plug my ears without another look
And I throw back all the people who've never asked to be let off the hook
And I’ve never been small, but I feel little tiny all the time
I don't know who I could call in this town in the middle of the night
If my car broke down or I was locked out of my house
If I needed to hear someone say hello
And I’ve done it to myself, I’ve made sure I will always be alone
And all kidding aside, in a hundred different ways
I’m the punchline once again. I am all of the clichés
And I’ve tried and I’ve tried to use the words you say
To fix my broken mind, to try and be okay
But still too often I find, all the ridicule replays
In the quietest of times, in the sounds of all my days
It’s the whistling of the old radiator in the living room
And the sound of kitten paws across the floor
It’s the humming of the traffic out my window, but no knocking at the door
It’s the ticking of the clock that I’m sure is getting faster
And the feeling that I’ve written this song before
It’s the humming of the traffic out my window, but no knocking at the door
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Happy Days
04:45
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Seen with one eye open, there's a world that is full of light
It's brilliant and shining in color and black and white
But as I look ahead now, all is seen through a lens of fear
My focus is narrow, my vision is so unclear
And I've grown colder each year I've grown older
And there's no sign of slowing down or changing my ways
And I'm always with my camera, but I'm never in the frame
And my life is full of other people's happy days
In the dappled sunshine, in the fields of yellow-green
You look the loveliest that I have ever seen
And on the darkest stages, where a single light shines down
The whole room starts smiling whenever you make a sound
And I'll stand before you as they adore you
And I'll save that for you, this moment of joy and of grace
And I'm right in front of everyone, but you'll never see my face
And my life is full of other people's happy days
And my life has a color cast
The lighting is all wrong
I feel just like a Polaroid that someone shook too long
And every moment, every day's composed and framed just so
And I perfect my life away with nothing much to show
Stacks of pictures on the floor
Ones you'll hang in your living room by the door
And they'll tell the story of the way that your life unfurled
I'll deliver them to you in a neat little package of happy proof
That you've been here and you've done this
And you'll live on in this little world
But I'll watch as time flies, I'll stand on sidelines
And I'll find these goldmines but I'll give them away
And you'll take them in your open arms and you'll put 'em on display
And I'll live my life through other people's happy days
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Stupid Boyfriend
03:42
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This is my stupid boyfriend, he's always doing things for me
He's smart and sweet and clever, he reads and writes me poetry
He sends me flowers at work, he'd save my kitten from a tree
I tell him I'm just a jerk, but he refuses to see
This is my stupid boyfriend, I don't know how to make him go
I say this probably should end, but he's a little bit slow
I can't imagine just why, but he has fallen hard for me
Don't wanna make him cry, but this is gonna end bad
Oh, bad
Badly
Uh huh
You know what they say
That you can't love anyone if you don't love yourself
Well, that's a cliche, but it turns out that's true...but
He won't walk away
No, he won't walk away
He won't walk away
This is my stupid boyfriend, he leaves a message everyday
He sends me exes and ohs, I never know what to say
He tells me that he loves me and that one day I'll believe him
But I'm so self-defeating and I won't let myself win
Oh, win
No, I won't win...but
He won't walk away
No, he won't walk away
He won't walk away
He won't walk away
No, he won't walk away
He won't walk away
(Won't let myself win)
He won't walk away
No, he won't walk away
He won't walk away
(Might let myself win)
He won't walk away
No, he won't walk away
He won't walk away
(I'll let myself win)
He won't walk away
No, he won't walk away
He won't walk away
I love my stupid boyfriend
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9. |
The Sweetest Words
05:12
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I had such big plans for me, just like Emily
I'd leave my small town and I'd move to the big city
And it would be a victory, a victory for me
'Cause I thought I could change my whole life with the scenery
So I got in my car, drove halfway cross the country
I brought my best friend but I lost her along the way
As we slid in the blizzard, the snow on the highway
I didn't believe her when she said I was doing okay
I'd done everything right, so I thought, 'til that night
I'd made all of my plans, I was cautious
But we'd argue and fight all in silence
My mind replaced all of my winnings with losses
'Cause the sweetest words, they ricochet
But the cruelest thoughts sink down all the way
Oh the sweetest words, they ricochet
But the cruelest thoughts sink down all the way
So I started my job, it was just temporary
While I crested the hill I'd been on for some time
And I worked and I tried and I cared and I waited
The more that I did, the more I started falling behind
And I thought of my family back home, they don't visit
But I talk to them every few days on the phone
And sometimes I pretend that there's more, but there isn't
They have no idea how much time I've been spending alone
And I guess that I do some things well, I can't tell
But some people, they smile when they see 'em
If they say a kind word, it goes almost unheard
'Cause I just can't make myself believe them
'Cause the sweetest words, they ricochet
But the cruelest thoughts sink down all the way
Oh the sweetest words, they ricochet
But the cruelest thoughts sink down all the way
And the friends that I made, I had started avoiding
And I just got bigger while my life stayed small
It's been so many years since the snow on the highway
But when I look at my life, it seems no time has passed by at all
I'd done everything right all the days of my life
But got in my own way and stayed cautious
And I argue and fight with myself, 'cause my mind
Replaced all of my winnings with losses
'Cause the sweetest words, they ricochet
But the cruelest thoughts sink down all the way
Oh the sweetest words, they ricochet
But the cruelest thoughts sink down all the way
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I'll Keep You Warm
02:39
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I'll keep you warm in the winter
Like a soft knitted scarf around your neck
I will wrap myself around you, I will kiss your frozen cheek
Trouble is, I haven't found you, but if you find me, I will keep
I'll keep you cool in the summer
Like a run through the sprinklers in your yard
I will be the one you lean to when you're reeling from the heat
Trouble is, I haven't seen you, but if you see me, I will keep
I'll keep you growing in the springtime
And I'll help you shed your old leaves in the fall
I'll be careful not to let you lose the ground beneath your feet
Trouble is, I have not met you, but if you meet me
If you meet me
If you meet me
I will keep
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Clicks of Shutters
03:18
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You make me feel so silly
You make me feel so blind
You make me feel so foolish
But I guess I don't mind.
And you're too far away most of the time
No, you don't get to stay most of the time
It'd take a day of driving
It would take so much more
To get me any closer
So why do I adore you
It's in the clicks of shutters
And in the clacks of keys
It's in your freckled shoulders
And your elbows and your knees
And the way they bend and curl around me
I feel these things too deeply
I'm always such a mess
But you make me feel so fearless
So I don't mind I guess
But you're too far away most of the time
No, you don't get to stay most of the time
It'd take a day of driving
It would take so much more
To get me any closer
So why do I adore you
It's in the clicks of shutters
And in the clacks of keys
It's in your freckled shoulders
And your elbows and your knees
And the way they bend and curl around me
And the way they bend and curl around me
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12. |
Linoleum
02:54
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I can't remember how it started
I only know that it was always there
I'd been let down and brokenhearted
A winner in a game of solitaire
But suddenly, when we were talking
It seemed that we, we couldn't let it end
A thousand miles you would be walking
A trust fall from the Grand Canyon and
Now I know you're the only one
Oh, I'm so glad we've found this linoleum
I didn't know just what I wanted
I'd been alright just being on my own
I lived a life so unencumbered
And things like love were a complete unknown
But here's a thing that I've been thinking
When I'm with you, it all just seems so clear
Your arms around me in the morning
Your sweetest voice that's singing in my ear
And now I know you're the only one
Oh, I'm so glad we've found this linoleum
Something's happened that can't be undone
Oh, I'm so glad we've found this linoleum
Oh and, I believe that you were made
In some kind of factory
With a checked-off list of all the things
That they knew that I would need
Then they told you 'bout my locked-up heart
And they gave to you the key
It's the only way that I can make some sense of you and me
And now I know you're the only one
Oh, I'm so glad we landed on linoleum
Something's happened that can't be undone
Oh, I'm so glad we've found this linoleum
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Brandi Ediss Northampton, Massachusetts
Rhymes with lettuce.
"Lush, lovely, smart and compelling start to finish." -Chris Collingwood
(Fountains of Wayne/Look Park)
“This is really good. I’m sold.” -A.C. Newman (The New Pornographers)
“What a gorgeous and deceptively effortless-sounding collection of perfect songs.” -Philip B. Price (Winterpills)
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